I struggle to grasp that it has been a year. Part of it is that I can so clearly remember March 31st, 2010, that it feels like days ago. Part of it is that the absence of Kyle has been so prominent, so obvious, and so influential, that it feels like it was years ago. Then there's the part that is just simply inconceivable. How is it possible that a 16 year old left so abruptly? How is it possible that Kyle is gone an we are left behind, moving forward and continuing our lives, always searching for ways to honor and to remember the dear friend we lost one year ago on this day.
So here we are in Israel, doing just that. Craig and I talked as we walked back from dinner to our hotel in Central Jerusalem. We talked about what Kyle would be doing if he were here with us. We pictured him walking alongside us, confident, with his head held high in his leather jacket, checking out the Israeli girls we passed along our way, slick, trying to get their attention. We talked and we fantasized, and while Kyle wasn't physically walking beside us, he was there. He was there through the 13 of his classmates, he was there through Craig, and there through Hasmig, and he was there through Israel, there through the land that he loved, the land that he never got to go to, and the land that we walk on today to honor, to remember, and to connect to our friend.
Today we began our quest for clarity, understanding, tranquility, and for closure. To try to, piece by piece, fill some of that hole that was left in our hearts when Kyle died last year, always thinking of our dear boy whom we miss so much, as we take the trip he never got to.
-Siena
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Thank you Siena for posting this. Love to all of you who are walking for those of us here who are experiencing this trip step by step from afar. We are hungry for your thoughts, insights, and reflections on dear Kyle on this journey. We are wrapping all of you in white light. We'll be checking the blog every day. love, patricia and devah
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